Woah. It’s hard to believe I’m in my 7th month already! I’ve been carrying this baby boy for more than half a year now. And since I promised you I would take you on this journey with me, I wanted to keep you posted on how things are going on my end.
It’s wild to see how much my belly is growing – honestly, it amazes me everyday. And I can’t even begin to explain how magical it is to feel this life moving inside of me…stretching, kicking, punching…and something that feels like rolling! It’s a beautiful reminder of the life force that’s literally growing inside of me; it’s humbling and gives me this overwhelming sense of appreciation – even when he decides to practice his karate moves at 3am.
It’s also a beautiful reminder of the perfection of nature. I don’t need to “try” to grow this baby’s arms, legs and heart…it happens all on its own, in perfect sequence.
Now don’t get me wrong. There’s a certain amount of “showing up” that I do, like managing my stress, eating well, taking my vitamins and making it to my prenatal swim classes and midwife appointments. But I don’t have to “try” to grow him. In fact, the best thing I can do is simply trust that it is all unfolding as it should (not always easy).
And like all great things, there’s a gestation period that can’t be avoided. There’s a necessary stretch of time for growth and alignment.
Speaking of growth. I was nervous that because of my past (sometimes present) body issues, I might judge my growing pregnant body. But I gotta tell you, I friggin love it.
I feel like a curvy, joyful, life-giving Queen. And it’s definitely because of my mindset.
When I saw my sister this weekend, she told me that I had a perma-smile on my face. Well, I believe her. I feel so much pride carrying this human around; growing him, nurturing him and loving him from the inside out. I feel like I’m always in the best company.
I know not everyone has this kind of experience, and trust me, I have my moments too. Sometimes I limp from sciatica pain or simply want to plop myself onto a couch and pull out my “pregnancy” card – and I do. But, this is my small part in helping to shift the collective story that pregnancy, birthing and motherhood is hard, by sharing with you what I absolutely love about this experience. There have been some challenging moments, and there may be more to come – but my commitment is to focus on the positive, and to help you do the same.
In the moments where I would rather complain, I’ll choose to remember the blessing and privilege of bringing a new life to this world – and to honour my pregnant body, my vessel of creation.
Peace & so much love,