It all started 19 weeks ago.
I was feeling tired and had a crazy burn in my chest…oh yes, that’s acid reflux and oh yes…I’m definitely pregnant!
So, I patiently waited for the day I could take the test to confirm what I already knew in my heart – and sure enough, there were two pink lines!
It was so hard not to call Jack and tell him the good news, but I wanted to make this announcement special. So I made him a card that read “Will you be my daddy”, and laid it on his side of the bed with the pregnancy test.
It was a beautiful moment of excitement and realization – this is real.
And so began our pregnancy journey – and the end of sushi and wine for me! Ha, for now anyway.
I’ve felt incredibly blessed this whole way through, even when my stomach felt like it was turned upside down (still don’t know why they call it morning sickness if it lasts all day). It was the strangest thing, feeling totally hungry and simultaneously turned off by everything. I’m happy to say, this phase has passed.
So has the worrying that can sometimes accompany those first 12 weeks of pregnancy. It took deliberate determination to choose my thoughts wisely towards wellbeing – as soon as any concern or doubt about the health of the baby would creep in, I’d feel tense in my stomach, identify the thought I was having and ease my way out of it.
I also got some pretty great advice from my mama friend. She said “you gotta get your worry under control now, or it’ll never stop – even when the baby is born. There’s always something you could be worried about.” She followed that with a very candid, “but I should probably take my own advice!”.
I’m thrilled to say that our baby boo has a healthy heart beat and one hell of a jab. I’ve been feeling this little rockstar moving around in my belly every day for the last two weeks. I keep wondering, what are you doing in there? Playing? Exercising? Dancing? All of the above? It’s an incredibly surreal feeling: there’s a human growing inside of me.
I’m excited to meet this person and to learn from him or her. I believe we have just as much to learn from children as they do from us – if not more! I’m excited for more play and for more love to enter my life and my heart and to share the special love we have with this new life.
I’m also SO excited to finally be sharing this news with you. We’ve been through so much together and I feel blessed to have you on this journey.
We’re about half way there now; excited for what’s to come and seizing the moment that’s here.
Thank you for your love and your presence. My heart is full with appreciation for you.
Here’s to growing our love tribe,